Uncovering the Wounded Healer

This month has packed a punch to the solar plexus.
 
I got to say both the full moon in Aries illuminating the depths of the watery shadows within me and this month’s energies of feeling the heart, have stayed true to their promises. There’s a whole lot of wearing my heart on my sleeve the last couple of weeks feeling a wide range of emotions that come up around life’s changes. 
 
Reflecting on my time in the Inner Tribe and the Healing Light group and its significance to me... at first it started as a desire to help support others through the fear of Covid, to bring connection where connection was lost, and to spread a little love and light where darkness crept in and lift others up so they can walk more confidently into their day. 
 

I poured my heart and soul in to helping others. Yah, you can say I’m a people pleaser.  I see it and I’m working on it! Supporting you through the anxiety, the heart ache, the disconnect, the stress, the breakups, the pain of lose, the shame, the guilt, through the diagnosis, treatments and recoveries, fed my soul and gave me purpose. Sometimes hours of free work given to cancer patients... why… because my driving force is always to help bring balance to body mind and spirit to those that don’t have it. 

Now it’s my turn to be vulnerable, to lean in, get support, to grow, to be the student, to learn about myself on a deeper level, to shed a few “layers”, to be empowered to stand in my TRUTH that I’m an amazing Healer and no one can take that from me.  It's the essence of my soul’s purpose. I know it to be true.

Spirit is demanding it’s my time to find “Her” without the fear of what others may think, without the fear of being too “big” or “successful”. …gawd damn, that’s a big block… but most importantly without the fear that I’m not enough. And that is even bigger than the last block. My ego is a b!tch, did I forget to mention? It's not an easy path uncovering what lies beneath. 

With so many of my planets in my Aries sign, my driving force to move forward quickly, even impulsively is ever present at the forefront of my mind GO GO GO. Help more. Support more. Bring more balance.  To actually pause, stay still and become silent is gonna be an uncomfortable journey as its not in my nature but I know that is what is needed now. 

I hear your call, Spirit and I’m ready to take that leap.  

I’m ready. 

I am ready to listen with my inner ears and inner eyes. 

I am ready to trust this path as I’ve trusted the path once before.

I am ready to claim the journey inward. 

I am ready to lay down the control for a while, pause and open to your embrace. 

I am ready. 

I am ready to uncover Her.